Post-grad status: what's next?

I graduated from college two months ago. I turned 24 on Sunday. Most people my age have settled in to their first “real” job. 9-5PM, 40-60 hours a week, salaried, living on their own, managing relationships, paying bills, all that good adulty stuff. Me? I’m grappling with this uncomfortable period in my life where I don’t know what’s coming next.

Photo by MARJAINEZ via Rookie

There is so much that compels me. I know I have the capacity to be great at anything I put my mind to (yeah, yeah, it's trite, but seriously, once you're in your mid-twenties you realize you have ALL THE POWER IN THE WORLD), but I have yet to find something that fulfills me in every way. What does that all mean? Well, there are people I admire... Tavi Gevinson, for finding a way to make her fashion blog into something more. She inspires young girls and has also created an artistic outlet for herself -- writing, singing, video-making, and now, acting. Lauren Bush, for using her strengths to help those in need. Her connections to New York’s elite have helped fuel FEED Projects, an internationally-known brand that provides meals and other forms of support for those struggling with poverty. Amanda Jane Cooper, for believing in herself and pushing fear of an unstable industry aside to follow her dreams. I went to high school with Amanda, and she is living the artist’s life, working in theater, film, and television in New York and Los Angeles.

These young women have found a way to let their passions propel them. Me? My interests keep me stuck. How could I possibly find a way to weave mine together? Fashion, theater, teaching middle schoolers, environmental sciences, social media, poverty, feminism... I feel so strongly about all of these things, but I’m not sure how to proceed. Which do I choose? Where do I go? There is no straightforward path for me now. I have to make those adulty decisions about what to do next. Save up money and move into Philadelphia by myself? Apply more aggressively to jobs in New York or D.C., regardless of my qualifications and fears? Continue my part-time job in the hopes that an appealing project or promotion is somewhere in the near future? Shoot for an unpaid internship and cross my fingers that the pieces will fall into place? 

I don’t know! This is that point in your life when people say, it's new and exciting and scary, you have the world at your fingertips, but they never tell you what comes after that initial jolt of panicked, breathless excitement. I’ll give you a hint: it’s a drawn out version of that shockwave that undulates beneath your every day, making you more and more uneasy as time passes by. It will go away eventually, sure, but when? YOU’LL NEVER KNOW AND THAT’S THE WORST.

Happy living, twenty-somethings.

xox,

Sara

The Ever-Terrifying Job Hunt

So, I'm officially a college grad, right? Well, that means that I have absolutely no more daily responsibilities and I have the freedom to vedge on my parents' couch for the rest of my life or, you know, do whatever I set my mind to, or whatever, if I can find a job. Finding a job. Not as easy as it sounds. I mean, you don't just wake up one day and say, "I'm going on a job hunt!" You don't pack up your weaponry and gut-cleaning tools and head out for a day of career-shooting out on the range. No, sir. It's a long, drawn-out process that depends on the reliability of your own motivation.

MOTIVATION? WHAT IS THIS THING YOU SPEAK OF.

Motivation. The evasive, sneaky li'l son of a gun who always waited until the night before a paper was due to appear and crept away every time you got on a roll and then you ended up on, say, tumblr -- "oh just for a minute!" -- and WHERE HAS TIME GONE I'M LATE FOR CLASS. That motivation.

What with my part-time job taking 20-30 hours of my week and the summer camp I just finished eating up two weeks of my summer*, and every episode of LOST consuming at least 3 hours a day**, when do I have time to search for a job?

That being said, I did find time to whip up a few applications and I ended up going through a few stages of interviews for a merchandising position at a retail giant based in New York (didn't get it). Now that camp is over, I'm scouring the internet for other companies/organizations I'd like to work for. Thank God for the internet. I mean, back in the golden ages people had to sift through classified ads in the newspaper and type up cover letters and resumes on typewriters and mail them out and wait for a response. Nowadays, just click the "Careers" link at the bottom of every website ever and voila! Job opportunities!

I found that magazines are a huge help if you're looking for some kind of career in fashion. Magazines that chronicle new store openings or the successes of little start-up sites can help pinpoint places that might be hiring that you would not have thought about or considered. I grabbed this month's issue of NYLON, and as it's the denim issue, I think I'll have plenty of companies to contact in the next few days...

In honor of becoming a working girl, here are some muted newsroom vibes for fall:

Photos via tumblr

xox,
Sara

* Totally worth it though, omg can I just say that middle school theater kids are incredible.
** THANK YOU, NETFLIX. JULIETTE & SAWYER 4EVER.